November 17,2020

Unpopular Opinion: When you’re in any type of relationship with someone, romantic, friendship, family etc. whatever is already inside you shows in true form. If that’s love you become more perceptive, understanding, compassionate, considerate and caring for your loved ones. If that’s hate it can show as more disinterest, anxiety, disloyalty, or selfish tendencies. There’s no ‘this person made me do this..’ because you are whoever you are, at any given moment. Dig deeper, protect yourself and others, and know YOUR value and worth. Don’t settle for less, cut or shorten ties where you need to, get to know yourself and your needs and wants before involving others. Consecrating your mind and body will help in this process as this is not a group project it’s your soul, and spirit that need work. Being with yourself will show you more than any friend or partner can ever do. Don’t associate yourself with people who are not committed to YOUR growth, whether that’s with or without them.

I personally learned a lot about what I have to do to get to reach my goals, and I am excited about this refocusing process, the opportunities that I am fortunate to have, the people I’ve talked to that are committed to me and my journey are incredible and more than I can ask for. It’s never an easy road for anyone. Everyone’s going through difficulties but as long as you’re ambitious and driven, your existence is incredible and rewarding! Very grateful and fortunate to be able to have these different support systems, and make those plans and changes to be able to help others in the same cycle of life on their individual journeys. Really excited for what this path will bring!

a few things I like:

Watching weight trainers eat junk food on cheat days

Glittery nail polish or any nail polish from daiso

Extra Cilantro on Pho

plastic cups after using them to hold the water for paint brushes

Sad and lonely poetry

Playing basketball alone for a few hours

Staring someone down on a train ride

The sky at night when it’s dark with foggy grey clouds

Eating cereal in the afternoon and watching key and peele or crime documentaries on Netflix

Random rap lyrics that pop in your head throughout the day

Puppies when they’re in a new environment and slowly explore the area

Campfires or fires near the beach

Putting on glasses that are freshly cleaned

Freshly sharpened pencils

Holiday decorations

Random friend conversations

Developing new feelings for someone

Driving with the window down in the evening after a good day, or driving slowly in rain

Really beautiful lakes, trees, flowers, hilltop or Mountain View’s

Being alone when you really need to recharge

Making breakfast with eggs and toast

Making new playlists on Spotify and sharing them with people

Reading a book on a quiet rooftop or taking photos on the top of a parking garage