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I am beautiful, I am unique, I am interesting, I am developing and I do have heartfelt and meaningful purpose. Every ounce of my existence is quantified with objective and intention with reasons beyond my imagination. I am motivated to live a full life.

“My human masterpiece,

easy on the eyes,

You’re instinctual for survival,

You’re my golden ratio, without a concept”

Today was a really good day; like the best I’ve had so far this week for sure. Special thanks to Köbi for the chat this morning, you told me exactly what I needed to hear and I’m glad people like you exist. No I don’t know you that well (yet), but just wanted to say that your really freakin’ cool man! Don’t know if you’ve heard it today but you’re really nice and all around just truly genuine kind hearted being. And don’t know if I told you yet but your voice is actually so lovely 🥲 it’s very gentle and soothing. I know you said you were gonna buy dinner but like dude I might have to take you out if you come to California again hahaha. But seriously I hope we can meet someday because you seem like you give the best hugs, and tall people are just like trees, they give you shade when things get a little too hot to handle. They’re very comforting for some odd reason. Anyway, Hope your day was beautiful! Hope life brings you tons of joy and happiness because you honestly deserve it. If anyone hurts you I will actually torch them to ashes like you’re so precious dude idk it’s pretty gnarly. Hope you take tons of time to yourself when you need it, to recharge and whatnot, hope you’re not overloading yourself with work or worries and you receive as much love as you give. It’s really rare to find sensitively strong people in this world, feeling very blessed that we crossed paths at this moment in time.. but seriously!! Come here when you’re not busy, so I can bake you cookies or whatever Russian people eat ? (if you’re Russian I can’t remember 😬), and talk about good artists and philosophy or share stories by a fireplace. I mean this all platonically since I don’t know you but I hope we continue talking 😅. Or if we only talk now and then I hope you continue to make fire content on Instagram because you’re like really photogenic and know how to make a sick aesthetic.

I’m like in my car after my last flower delivery for the day eating a bean patty lettuce wrap, I love onions and tomatoes God bless fruits and veggies, and tater tots but with sweet potatoes fries because why not have both you know ? Days aren’t perfect though, it’s nice when there’s special moments to stop and take in about them, and that they do get better and that’s a dope epiphany or realization to have. Life is wonderful and I’m glad I’m given so many opportunities and still have a positive outlook on it all. If you’re someone who sheds a lot of tears when you do, I hope you smile or laugh the hardest. To people that make the strongest attempts and efforts at what you do, I hope you get the best return on your investment. I think I always get crazy and sentimental when I see a sunset , like who doesn’t ? Seriously it’s so beautiful I wish someone would call me a sunset. Not sunshine, but that in between of going down (heheh) and still somewhat being alive and awake. I still think it’s hilarious that my grandmother, who’s like 73 loves Miguel and here favorite song is sure thing. It’s all romantic but anytime I hear it I think of how she dances and turns up the radio. I wonder if it’s because she’s a libra I hear they’re the most romantic sign or something. I wish I believed in astrology a lot less than I do, like I’m all about learning people for who they are and think we all share qualities or characteristics like those are different moments of our life, you know.

Also what’s crazy to me is that I just learned maybe earlier this year that mayonnaise is not a milk product? I might just be very dumb, (numnuts for lYfe am I right), but they are just eggs and other things apparently. Why did I always associate it with a cow- because it’s white and tasted disgusting to me as a child. Also is tarter sauce just pickle relish and mayonnaise. If you’ve ever had catfish with tarter sauce I feel like we should test that theory together, because whenever I look at tarter sauce my instinct is just to say it’s an expensive version of two other ingredients mixed together. I mean it’s probably like 2$ a bottle but still I feel like if you have those other ingredients you can mix them together maybe. My lettuce wrap got cold why does that make me mad. Also why am I addicted to making tiktoks now why is it so seductive. Like your instinct is that you don’t look good on video but when it’s with a song or voiceover the vibe is pretty immaculate. I missed a funeral today and don’t know how I feel about it because it was just an outside burial site because of corona.. like my great granny was always excited about death (even though she’s not the one who died), it just trips me out that dying is something some people can be completely at peace and excited for especially if you’re religious, particularly older people, but young people it scares the crap out of us. Or atleast me from time to time. I hope I gain that type of blissful release and joy when I get older though.

Do something spunky today light a spark in a part of your soul that you feel has been dark lately. It doesn’t have to be perfect or work the way you want it to. Be open minded and find a vessel to give you energy. It could be an object, a thought, a task something to motivate a new wave of reflective sensibility for a time. Get these entities and let them stimulate you to approaching the week with a bright-eyed and bushy-tailed mentality.

Bringing back blog websites bc I hate seeing social feeds, I don’t know how anyone thinks for themselves staring at those things while writing.

Being caught in rain, and someone else is holding the umbrella. You saw the streams down my face? Yet you didn’t open it to help, you stood around and let me ruin, the only things I had to keep me warm. I don’t know if I was scared to ask you for it, but hearing “no I’m sorry I can’t”, wasn’t the most fond of thought in mind. You saw that it brought me to a storm -and you chose to keep looking in the window pane.