stressed. joyed

it is Nov. 15th Monday 12:58pm and I have so much to do today, or rather that i want to get done. Its like every second leading up until December 11th is the brightest most exciting thing that has ever happened to me. Some people can say that their life has brought many uncertainty but has prevailed in some way due to their own instincts and perseverance. As well as support and love etc all the things that sets someone up for success. 3 years ago my goal in life was to be stable and independently taken care of no matter what the cost was.

So many sad nights are paying off. Finally content with myself and love and happiness or rather getting there. God works in mysterious ways and I can never say its not been for the greater good in my existence.

/ Being alone.. not really a new feeling

something i’m quite used to but never relentlessly comfortable in, I think it is never truly a waste to seek out love unless harm is nearby. Yet I do have to remind myself of worthy thoughts and mind over matter essentially.

One of the best things that you can do for yourself is to put your feelings away and trust in your true being, that you have trained your mind to make the decisions that most benefit you and is the right thing to do

Reminder to tell yourself;

“I trust you more than anyone else”

Don’t force your value on someone- now requiring them to inspire me like I inspire myself. Push me through tough times like not many others can. You’re only young once, so many older people in my life encourage me to live free and happy so no time for tears just hard work, higher horizons and such therein beautiful memories.