i.. me..

i’ve never been one to beg for help almost to a fault perhaps. its been hard for me to feel trusting of those around me, so i tend to take everyones feelings into account except my own. i admit this is largely unhealthy as it has in the past left me feeling uncared for and unimportant. maybe i have conditioned myself to think that way because i have not previously been taught to feel as though my circumstances or thoughts do not have meaning. i have just learned to not feel dependent on any thing or any one but myself, and sometimes my family.

this way of interpreting my growing up has left me with a resilient and very strong willed nature that i am extremely grateful for. i have made mistakes but there are no time for tears, regret or other unprecedented emotions. the fact of the matter is that at 24 i am finishing college and making my way into a bright and loving future, and want to care for and give back to other people as much as i can as long as i am allotted time on this earth. this best time to make impact in in the present and i promise to be as present in any moment as i can for the rest of the year without fail. the iron is hot and ready for every grocery and fresh idea that i have stocked up as well as many more to come. thank you God